Sometimes, you just want to cry.

this has been a rough year. I lost my mom. My dad is fighting Cancer. Several musicians who were big influences on me died of either suicide or drugs. I myself am battling an alcohol problem. It seems like every time I turn around, another mountain of shit crashes into me. Music... Music is cathartic though. Tonight, I was sitting in my living room, listening to some music in the dark, and just crying. No shame, just letting the emotion flow through me. sometimes it's important to remember that it's okay to be sad. For the friends I've lost to suicide... and the musicians whose music helped heal me, but couldn't heal themselves:
For those who fight the good fight against the evils in the world, but can't quite conquer their own demons:
 

For those who are struggling to deal with the loss of someone dear to them:

well now... it's been a while. Life was good, for quite a while. Thanks KF for everything you do for me. Life turned to crap lately. Gonna miss you mom. I'm listening to a lot of instrumentals. I'm also listening to stuff that is angry and resentful. I'm trying to get back into playing myself, but it's slow progress. Here's some stuff.

Five Finger Death Punch - Canto 34. the title is a reference to one of the later verses of Dante's Inferno, wherein Dante and Virgil approach the 9th circle of hell and observe the traitors' fate in the icy lake of Cocytus.

Caspian is a band I found through Slacker Radio's "post-rock soundscapes" station. "Gone in Bloom and Bough" makes for good driving/working music where I can be alone with my thoughts yet steered towards positive emotions.


A Perfect Circle is putting out another album. I'm a big fan, though Maynard and I have very different outlooks regarding religion. I appreciate this piece aesthetically, and I can understand (based on his history) his resentment towards religion and many religious people even if I don't share the sentiment.